A place to vent

Day one. I need a place to vent and I need a place to share my thoughts. The year of 25 has been a hectic one. I started it by just moving away from my parents house after abruptly being cast back there whilst finishing my last semester of university from my home country instead of in Scotland. I started my new adult job on September first and had to adapt to a Monday to Friday normal adult job with normal adult responsibilities. Following a rough autumn and winter me and my long distance boyfriend broke up after nearly four years together, mostly because he decided he no longer wanted to move to Sweden any more. Fair enough, its dark, cold and gloomy here (but the summers are great). 

Funnily enough, him applying for a visa led me to having to find a new apartment very quickly and I happened to stumble upon my dream apartment. It has a large living room with a nice big balcony on the south side of the building (sun nearly all day). I have a functioning open fireplace in the living room with an archway door that takes you to the hall and into my modern kitchen and it is just such a lovely apartment. A modern apartment in a semi-old building, including super high ceilings and loads of handy storage space. Its lovely and I have made it (and still am) into my own little safe space. I absolutely love coming home to my apartment every evening and its just such a grateful feeling to have a space which is now completely mine.

A space where I moved right after my break up and where I started my life as a single 25 year old. It was fucking terrifying but I was also so ready. After a rather unfulfilling last year or so of our relationship I think our break came as a bit of a relief for me, a topic I will take on another evening. Its been hard to adapt and hard to get used to being completely alone. Ive had a lot of anxiety about life in general, what I am doing, what actually makes me happy and what I want to do next. I am therefore starting this blog as a safe space for me to fill with my thoughts, ideas and speculations. See it as a little onlie diary. I cant wait to fill it with my nonsense.